{edit} [24 years old... The good and the bad things that seemed to come together...]

24 years old... I am moving on in a journey that doesn't seem to have a final destination...
I am apologetic for being one who only knows how to move forward without looking back...
It's been a long day celebrating my birthday amidst blessings and laughters...
I am regretful for not knowing that there are many people who care for me until I read the letters received for my 23rd birthday...
I received a call from my dad, which isn't a birthday blessing call... It's to inform me that my grandmother, who has pneumonia/lung cancer, have only 6 more months to live...
Urm...
To be honest, I have little recollections and memories of me & my grandmother... I am indeed unfilial... The unfilial grandson who did not visit her for the past 5 years...
The grandson, who saw his grandmother being hospitalised a week ago and is busy with his work schedule, keeping a happy front... Wishing he could be by his grandmother's side now and hold her hands for just one more time...
I am Ryeowook, who cannot smile wholeheartedly even after receiving everyone's blessings/wishes...
Thank you everyone~ Please pray for my grandmother...{/edit}